Stress Writing

Normally, I write to think.

Today, we're trying something new.

Writing not to think.

Or, really, writing to not think about things that are stressing me out.

I'm one of the least stressed folks I know. I can go with pretty much any flow without much fanfare.

Thresholds exist. I'm on the other side of one.

There are some ideas floating around in my head. Things I could work on to draw my focus and give some reprieve. They require a certain amount of spoons. I ain't got them.

So, this is an experiment. A stream of consciousness thing to try to release some pressure.

It's working.

So, I'm just gonna keep writing.

I'm trying to decide if I want to get into what's stressing me out or not. Probably not. Not because it's something I want to avoid posting about. It's because it's something I'd want to get the words right for.

Writing mode with a capital "W".

Editing too. It takes me a bunch of passes to get things shaped the way I want.

There's none of that here.

Forward, always forward.

That's a quote from somewhere I think.

Writing this makes me want to start recording podcast episodes again. I just turn on a mic and let my mind wander. Same thing I'm doing now.

Kicking back into the audio has been on my mind for a while. I haven't pulled the trigger. Mainly, because I want to move the old stuff and redo it and get thing line up.

That's one of those perfection paralysis things though. I just need to rip one and let it fly.

(Okay, okay, writing is helping me think. That's not the purpose of this post. Just a natural side effect.)

Status Update: Everyone else just went to bed. Now I can sit in the dark and write. It's so much nicer. It's that whole "introvert recharge thing".

Anyway, this is helping way more that I would have expected. I can feel the tension easing out of my shoulders.

by the way: take 5 seconds and relax your shoulders.

better, right?

I know it is for me.

-a